Happy Face

I would like to think that my life is starting to make sense. It certainly feels like it.
There has always been uncertainty, that's a given, but it feels like something is happening. It's nothing huge, creative or even massively aspirational. It feels normal, almost sane. For the first time in years, all the gambles and mistakes seem to suddenly make sense. I have always been so hard on myself and that has caused things to be hard for others, even miserable. I've not been the easiest to befriend or love and I realise now that there is still time to change and I feel that this change is happening.
I know what I want. I know who I want to be with. I know where I want to be. All the moving, tweaking and venting seems to have yielded something positive. I'm not going to be all 'Rom-Com' and suggest that it's purely down to the right girl but it is part of it, having the right combination of friend and romantic partner. Yeah, K.P has certainly helped matters of the brain. I'm pretty sure I would lost without her; mentally and physically.
It has almost been five years and it's usually a fork-in-the-road for most relationships. In my, admittedly limited experience, things have usually soured by this point. With her, and our situation, it feels like another era is emerging. Yes, we are moving again. Yes, we are going back to Leicester but, thankfully, this time away to re-focus has really helped to solidify what we want. What we want is simple; to be happy in our own zone, to see people that want to see us, to have fun where fun can be had. Also: pets.
 This change, after a shitty year, needs a new outlet and this is it. I am going to keep this up, mostly for myself. I need to record the good times and rationalise things when they are unclear. I look back at my old blogs with a smile. I did the best I could and then I met someone special. This is going to be about celebrating that and being positive (and mostly likely goofy).
I have been my own worst enemy in recent years and it's time to be a friend. This might prove harder than I think but I am also going to do something that I haven't done in so long. I am going to try. Try while I'm still young enough for it to matter.